My wife went out again today; but, again I figured she only be gone about 45 minutes - just enough for a couple of enemas. Doggone it, she was gone for 2 hours. When I figure my time is limited I don't break out all my toys. I just get the enema bulb, lubricant, the inflatable dildo, and the penis pump. I had everything put away at about the 50 minute mark thinking I was certainly low on my alone time. Nonetheless, I gave myself 3 enemas so tonight after she's in bed I will be fucking my ass with a couple of my big toys.
On to something else - my total enjoyment of pee. I find very few (relatively speaking) entries on Zity by people who truly enjoy drinking pee, be it their own or others. I guess I'm into something not enjoyed by very many people. I try drinking some of my pee every day. If I don't drink it from a container of some sort sometime during the day, you can rest assured I'll plaster my freshly soaked diaper against my face to suck some pee from it. I'm tempted to start a new topic titled "Ways you like to drink pee." I wonder if there would be any activity on such a topic.
I haven't been in any of the chat rooms since I joined. Every time I go to the chat room listings there are rarely any members in them. Worse than that, I've never seen anyone in the Diaper room. Apparently there isn't much activity in them or I'm not looking at the right times. I think I'd enjoy some chat with other DL folks. There are a lot more of them than I ever thought there were. I wish I felt comfortable enough to "come out" to my wife that I wear for fun rather than need. I've mentioned to her how much more comfortable they are than regular underwear and how much I enjoy feeling my dick and balls thru the padding. I've asked her to rub me thru them which has happened only a few times. I've dropped subtle hints like those; but, I'm just not sure what her reaction would be if I said, "Hey, honey, I need to tell you I'm not at all incontinent. I wear these diapers because I love how they feel and I love peeing in them all day long. I hope you can accept that. In fact, I'd love for you to join me by wearing diapers. Whether you choose to pee in them isn't important. But, I'd love for us to masturbate each other thru them." I'm pretty sure she would look at me and ask when exactly it was I lost my mind.
When I think about my love of pee, my enjoyment of wearing 24/7, my wanting to being wet day and night, my desire to have enemas often enough that I never have a regular bowel movement, and my love of going bigger and deeper with my anal toys, I wonder when it will all end. I turn 75 years old (or young) in 3 months. I know my enema sessions and anal play has slowed down in the past 6 months. However, it's not due to a lack of interest or desire. While my wife retired 2 1/2 years ago, she has been working part time the past 2 years which gave me plenty of time to enjoy my desires. The past 6 months, and into the future, that will no longer be the case. Because we have agreed I will try to use discretion when entertaining myself, I don't feel comfortable telling her during the daytime that "I think I'll take a couple hours to go in the bathroom and play by myself."