I have not always been one to have the best self image. But I have learned the hard way your opinion is truly the only one that matters. You will never measure up to what everyone thinks you should be. So I will do as my father always taught me do the best you can do that's all any of us can do and Give the rest to God. I just wish I knew how to get through things without my dad I have truly been struggling and have lost many friends through this. I always thought when you lose someone your friends and family will always support you boy is that wrong. And unfortunately when you have health issues it just makes grief heavier to bear. But I am a strong woman and will keep on keeping on.