I finally reached breaking point last night and became a very naughty girl. A lady at the shelter I stay at started badmouthing and misgendering me while I was asleep thinking I wouldn't hear her. I woke up and cursed her and several others who jumped in so bad that I would have needed three soapy mouthwashes as punishment. Plus, I had really wicked thoughts of beating them with the very cots they slept in. This is the point I really need someone to force me into a diaper and to regress anyway possible and punish me until I regain control of Chaos, my extremely destructive personality that only cares about one thing: destroy or be destroyed. I have gone too long repressing my sweet angelic two year old personality that I feel I am becoming a danger to myself or others.