So how things change and move forward.
Health: Hearing much better now. Effects from stroke are seemingly better with only the occassional set back but therapy is always in go mode and everyone likes the direction that I am moving.
Work: I opted out of my contract and took their buyout. It is a nice tidy sum and I really don't have to worry much about working for the extended future but I get bored easily. I put in place my replacement and he will do a grand job of continuing on with things. If he doesn't then I get a call and go back to work. Maybe.
Recent events: I've been to Sao Pallo and Toulon and Frankfurt in the past two weeks. Yes building those frequent flyer miles. I have the chance to start doing research again with a former S.O. It would be good to work with her again and her partner. They are good focused people.
Now: I'm bored. Have a lovely suburban home with lots of acres and no one to share it with. Have a great Condo on the Gold Coast and no one to share it with. Sold my property in the Bahamas but keeping my home in Fiji. Keeping my interest in the Autodetailing place. Love those guys. They make my cars run great.
I know a lot of people but really and truly have very few friends. And I understand why I don't have many friends and it is okay. I need a schedule so I know when I need to be ready to go somewhere. I need that contact that says be ready in 30, I'll pick you up. Right now that doesn't exsist. I need, and have, that person I can communicate with when the darkness surrounds me. I need that person who checks up on me from time to time. I don't have that person at the moment. Dating sucks, Bars suck, the flirting is still ok. But the effort you have to put forth is a pain in the ass.
I went to a club in Frankfurt. One of those loud German clubs like on TV. It was great. Have a Russian fellow hit on me and then his friend came up and wanted to know why he was talking to such an old woman. GOD. Old woman. Jesus. I smiled and in almost perfect Russian I told him I knew how to fuck both Men and Women and the girls on the dance floor only think they know how to fuck and once he turned 21 maybe he should look me up. His friend just started laughing. And no I didn't get laid that night.
Things are just all jumbled up at the moment. But there will be a shift. A wandering eye that catches mine. An offer I just can't refuse. Things will continue forward. Just right now I'm a bit lonely. And that is a normal thing as well. We all go through it. Well enough of this fucking pity party. It's Thursday here and Saturday night is another God Damned Benefit that I am being dragged to. Still talking to the goth dancer but don't know where that might lead. But never just ignore something you aren't used to. You might miss out on something special.
Later all, Faith