So, I laid out a few weeks, took some time off, traveled around Europe for a while and enjoyed some vanilla company.
While off I didn't have one single enema or engage in any other kinky activities. I did have some intimate fun with a lady but that's a different topic. Odd how I didn't even really miss this place until I fell back into my old habits here at home.
I hate to say I come here out of boredom but there is something missing in my day-to-day life that can be filled by coming here. A break from the mundane, even if only in the fantasy sense of late. The excitement of traveling eclipsed that desire for quite a while.
So, do I really have a fetish or is it just a kinky desire? Labeling it doesn't change anything but I do ponder the various degrees of it all.