Bad weekend was pretty sick in hospital. doing better now but was pretty serious. feeling much better now. just when the clouds are breaking it clouds up again. struggling so hard to get through a personal issue and this did not help. but i will grt through this. this personal issue has to fade slowly i guess but its hard. i will make it fade and will not give up. i am enjoying my life. i do love my life and it will only get better. i will make this happen. i am strong and will nkt let that pull keep me. i will stay away from it and not think about it. was doing well until i got ill but now tat im better will fight this everystep of the way. no one will control my feelings again. will not allow that to happen.