Warning a sad account of the past few weeks.
I can barely make myself write this. The past few days all I could ingest was protien shakes and water. The thought of food just made me sick.
Once I made the decision, 5am lying in the floor, I had to keep it together. But once it was over, while it was happening all I wanted to do was puke. Vomit all over the place. Between tears and nausea, chest pains, waves of unbelievable sadness I made my husband call the vet and make an appointment.
We had been up all night off and on laying with her.
It started with a UTI that didn't get much better with antibiotics, then onto a special diet, more (different) antibiotics, prednisone, still no good results. As a matter of fact, she went down hill. At some point my 13 pounder dropped to 8 pounds.
In the beginning, many years ago, she had been abandoned, I found her and took 10 months to bring her to wellness and good health. She was my savior, my constant companion 24/7 and I was hers. I have had many pets over the years, but this one, this one touched me in a place and way that will never be duplicated. Family and friends marveled at how this cat 'talked' to me almost non stop, and was by my side her every waking moment.
She ate with me, slept with me, watched tv with me, sat on my desk, followed me around like a little puppy dog, even took walks outside with me. She freaked it she couldn't see me or hear me. But she was a cat.
We took her to the vet, she didn't make a peep, not her normal complaints from being in the carrier and car. She trusted me. It was horrible. The vet and technicians were incredble. But watching them sedate her and see her slump over, rhe light gone from her eyes. I don't want to experience that ever again. 30 years ago I told myself no more animals! The pain when it is time to put them to sleep, is horrific. But there she was, worming herself into my heart, needing me to give her life, and 12.5 years ago that is what I did. And what a life she had, we had
She's buried in my backyard now, in my garden, almost 13 years of constant love and total devotion.
I will survive, good memories will be mine to keep.
Rest in peace.
Comments
Turkey1 5 years ago
My two "new" fur babies are incredible. They have assimilated into life here quite well. The boy, little pervert that he is, not only joins me in the morning for my first pee, he is very interested in what happens behind the shower curtain!
Watches me brush my teeth, fights with the paper coming out if the printer. Literally grabs my hand with his two paws so I will pet him. He is just a love. His sister has also wormed her way into our hearts.
RaytheGent 5 years ago
In regards to the loss of your cat, since I have been a young boy I have been a cat lover. When a person is truly attached to their pet-companion as you were with your cat, their passing and the grief experienced is unable to be described by the use of language. However your care and love for your feline in turn says LOT of you-yourself. Your pet-cat-companion loved you just as much or more,,,,,,,,,,,
Ray Johannsen
n/a 6 years ago
Sorry for your loss! Losing a firkid is losing a family member and a very close friend all at once. Glad to hear you were blessed with two new companions.
Ms Lila 6 years ago
I love my cats and they are a large part of my life. I have to work late at times during the week, and they always are there to greet me when I come home. I was sorry to hear of your loss, and I hope that time will help you remember and smile at those memories.
Lila
Turkey1 6 years ago
Well, it has been about two months and I broke down. I said I wouldn't do it, but, I did. We now have two cats, a brother and a sister. Tabby's. One Orange or ginger the other Black/grey.
The house was so different without a cat, kind of empty. (Like the 100 lb lab isn't enough!) SO from a shelter run by a friend these two 6 year olds have a home.
Thanks for all your wonderfully kind comments.
fun 6 years ago
Sorry for your loss. I myself have lost two dogs recently and know how it feels.
mike45 6 years ago
So sorry for your loss Turkey, I know how painful it can be. I had a Rat Terrier dog for 16 years before I put him down, but I knew it was time. Had arthritis and some other medical issues.He was very word smart and loved by so many other people too. He went where ever I went, to do errands, and he loved going fishing at the lake. The ex and I had him cremated and threw half his ashes into the lake he loved so much. Then we split the rest of them and I buried him where he always went outside. It really hit home that 1st night without him, because he always slept with me and and had to lie next to me or be touching me with his paws. Yes they're family and tears your heart out when they have to go, cried that night.
My heartfelt sympathy for you Turkey, time will ease the pain some though.
Rest in peace Oscar!!!
MelanieK 6 years ago
Big huggie from me. I know how special a cat can be and a friend lost hers and it wa slike loosing a verx close familiy member. I tried to give her all support I could. It got better. Just yesterday we talked about her cat and now she is just very fond of the lovely memories. Still a bit sad but the wonderful memories overweight it. I am happy she ffels better and I like that there is still such a warm memory. Finally she is now at the point of thinking of just maybe getting another cat which was not possible first after the death. So I really hope that the grief gets less a tiny little bit every day and that there comes a time soon, when gratitude for the wonderful years overweights the pain.
Huggies, Melanie
Turkey1 6 years ago
Thank you all who have commented or pm'd me. It has been almost 30 years since I had to take a beloved pet to be put to sleep. I knew it would be difficult, they are our family members. I was shocked to my core how hard it hit me. Three plus days of literal pain and nausea.
This too will pass and it has, I am 'over' the worst. Just miss her sweet face and chirps, (yes my cat chirped at me) every morning.
Life goes on.
sirwilliam55 6 years ago
Been there many times with dogs, im a big strong man, but my dogs are my friends, as was the cat, so i know how it feels.....
Nik 6 years ago
Thinking of you Turkey
Nik
Kid 6 years ago
Hugs Turkey I'm sorry for your lose. I know losing a pet is just like losing a child, my cat Casper was almost like a dog he followed me everywhere I went, I lost him April 19th 2010 he was suffering wasn't eating or drinking and at 16 yrs old that is really bad took him to the vet and they gave me the news that his kidneys were shutting down and there was nothing they could do. So with tears in my eyes I decided to put him down, but I couldn't watch him be put to sleep even as I write this my tears flow, so I said my good byes and they took him away. But like I said it was just like losing my child. What I did is go to a shelter and got myself another cat, I wasn't replacing Casper he will be in memories. :) Sue
Spankingmaster 6 years ago
Hugs turkey :(
MissStress 6 years ago
Hugs for you turkey1. We are a cat family (with 2 in the house and a bunch in the barn). They are special critters. They leave a lasting memory on our hearts when they are gone. We lost our Cookie just over a year ago. 16 1/2 years old, she just fell a sleep to not wake again. I miss each of them for a time. Then another one worms it's way into my heart to some what replace the others. Remember the good memories, the times spent together. Don't discount another cat in your future. One never knows when the time is right or the cat is right. *hugs again
tubeman 6 years ago
We had to let our Stuzy go to about 3 yrs ago. We had her 18 yrs. It was not easy but the right thing to do. We said the same thing no more but now we have a rescue he is about 7yrs old and he is my buddy. He is a house cat. Give it time and the heart heals and you may feel different. Stay up beat.