As a woman:
I've been told I have to be strong.
I have to be in charge.
I have to make a thousand decisions.
I'm supposed to work, raise a family, do the dishes/laundry, clean the house.
I'm supposed to do it all, and have to be cheerful about it.
I have to be Superwoman.
But I'm not.
I'm fragile, I'm vulnerable, I'm weak.
I want to be loved, and I want to be safe being who I really am.
Nervous you won't find me attractive.
Nervous you'll think my baggage is too much to handle.
Nervous you'll look at my issues and dismiss me as a potential play partner.
Nervous you'll reject me.
I want to play.
I want to be liked, appreciated.
I want to know you think me beautiful.
I want to be worthy of your time, your friendship.
I want the true me to shine forth, out of this nervous gal who has had to live through masks.
I want to be me.