Metamorphosis is a biological process by which an animal physically develops after birth or hatching, involving a conspicuous and relatively abrupt change in the body structure through cell growth and differtiation. Some insects, amphibians, molluscs, crustaceans, Cnidarians, echinoderms and tunicates undergo metamorphosis, which is usually accompanied by a change of habitat or behaviour. (Wikipedia)
Well I am not an insect, amphibian or mollusc etc, and was going to say that I have not undergone a 'conspicuous and relatively abrupt change in the body structure', but then I realised that actually that would not be true - thanks to the Zity/Kinky Diet Plan I have undergone such a conspicuous and relatively abrupt change, and the change in my body structure (noticable loss of weight) is not the only change I have undergone since finding Zity. The last couple of months in particular have been a time of great change for me - so much so that I barely recognise myself as the same person I was when I wrote my last blog entry. These changes are still ongoing, but have reached stage where it is possible to take a breather, look back and reflect a little.
The last few weeks have been a real rollercoaster ride - lots of sad anniversaries (these are still ongoing and will be until late January - today would have been R's 55th birthday). I have at times immersed myself in Zity, at other times just switched off altogether - whatever it took to get through.
These tough days have been curiously intermixed with a rapid 'expanding of my horizons'. Among other things this included - trying the ginger I bought; an extraordinary amount of role playing (both on YIM and more informally in chat rooms on Zity); and buying and trying various different toys (my latest being a Higginson). I started writing about these as part of this blog, but have decided that the entry would soon become way too long and so will deal with each as a separate blog entry. Suffice to say here that I am now pretty much completely at home with who and what I am, and proud to think of myself as a kinkster; though I can still remember what it felt like to be new here and to discover for the first time that I am not the only person who ever thought/felt the way I do, nor the first one to do the things I have been doing most of my life (and therefore not some kind of weirdo as I had always believed). I am what I am and I love myself for it. Thank you Zity!