Painful gynecological examinations
Megan's exam
# Megan's Comprehensive Wellness Exam
**I.**
The Whitfield Women's Health Institute occupied the ground floor of a converted medical arts building in a quiet part of town. The waiting room had been recently renovated — soft lighting, neutral tones, framed botanical prints — but the effect was sterile rather than calming, like a hotel lobby designed by someone who had never stayed in one.
Megan Calloway sat in a cushioned chair near the window, her knees bouncing. She was eighteen, five-foot-one, with a slight frame, freckled shoulders, and auburn hair cut to her jawline. She weighed barely a hundred and five pounds. She wore a sundress her mother had picked out, as if the right outfit might somehow make the appointment easier.
Her mother, Patricia, sat beside her, flipping through a wellness brochure she'd picked up from the rack. Patricia was the sort of woman who researched everything — schools, restaurants, physicians — with the intensity of an investigative journalist. She had spent three weeks selecting a gynecologist for Megan's first exam.
"Dr. Kovac has a 4.9 rating on every platform I checked," Patricia said, not looking up. "And three women from my Pilates class see him. Janet said he found a precancerous cervical lesion that two other doctors missed because they didn't bother to look properly."
"You've told me," Megan said quietly.
"I'm telling you again so you understand this isn't arbitrary. You're eighteen. You need a baseline. And you need someone who won't cut corners."
Megan said nothing. She watched a woman exit through the inner door, walking stiffly, her face unreadable.
A medical assistant in navy scrubs appeared at the doorway. "Megan Calloway?"
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**II.**
The intake was routine. Height: five-one. Weight: one-oh-five. Blood pressure: slightly elevated — "White coat syndrome," the assistant said with a rehearsed smile. Medical history: unremarkable. Allergies: none. Medications: none. Sexual history: none.
The assistant led Megan to a large examination room at the end of the hallway. The room was cold — deliberately cold, Megan would later think. One wall was dominated by a counter and cabinetry. On the counter sat two stainless steel instrument trays, both covered with blue surgical drapes. The exam table was wide, with thick padding and an adjustable backrest. Stirrups were folded against its sides. There were attachment points Megan didn't recognize — rails, clamps, adjustable arms.
"Go ahead and undress completely," the assistant said. "Everything off. There's a gown on the table — opening in the front. Dr. Kovac will be in shortly. Your mother can stay or wait outside. Doctor leaves that up to you."
"Stay," Patricia said immediately.
Megan looked at her mother, then nodded.
The assistant left. Megan undressed slowly, folding each item with unnecessary precision — a delay tactic she was aware of but couldn't stop. She removed her sundress, her bra, her underwear. Naked, she caught her reflection in the glass face of a cabinet. She was slim — narrow hips, small breasts that barely filled an A cup, a flat stomach, pale skin that showed every flush. She pulled the gown on quickly, tying it loosely.
Patricia settled into the chair in the corner, crossing her legs. "Just breathe. It'll be over before you know it."
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**III.**
Dr. Andrei Kovac entered without knocking. He was fifty-eight, broad-shouldered, with a thick neck and heavy hands. His hair was steel gray, cropped short. He wore a white coat over a dark shirt, and moved with the unhurried deliberation of a man who had never been rushed in his life. His accent — faintly Eastern European — surfaced on certain consonants.
He did not smile.
"Megan." He sat on the rolling stool and opened her chart on a tablet. "Eighteen. First gynecological exam. No sexual activity. No symptoms."
"That's right."
He scrolled through the intake form. "Any menstrual irregularities?"
"Sometimes my period is a day or two late. That's it."
"Pain during menstruation?"
"Some cramping. Normal, I think."
He set the tablet aside and looked at her directly. His eyes were dark brown, heavy-lidded, assessing.
"I should explain my approach before we begin. I am not a standard practitioner. Standard practitioners perform standard exams — quick, superficial, designed to find nothing. They succeed." He paused. "I perform comprehensive evaluations. Every structure. Every passage. Every tissue that can be assessed, I assess. This takes time. Some of it will be uncomfortable. Some of it will be painful. I don't apologize for that. Pain is diagnostic information."
Megan's fingers tightened on the edge of the table.
"The exam today will include external and internal vaginal examination, cervical evaluation, urethral assessment, a complete breast evaluation including tissue sampling, and a full anorectal examination. I will explain each step as I go, but I will not stop a procedure because it hurts. If I stopped every time a patient asked me to, I would never complete an exam, and I would miss pathology."
Patricia nodded from the corner. "That's exactly the thoroughness we were looking for."
Dr. Kovac turned back to Megan. "One more thing. I use a stabilization system during the exam." He gestured to the table — the rails, the attachment points. "Padded restraints for the wrists, ankles, and a waist strap. This is not punitive. It is practical. When I cause pain — and I will — the body's instinct is to pull away, close the legs, sit up. This makes the exam longer, increases the risk of injury from instruments shifting during movement, and forces me to repeat painful steps. The restraints eliminate all of that."
"Restraints?" Megan's voice cracked slightly.
"Voluntary. You agree or you don't. But I recommend them for every first-time patient. Without exception."
Megan looked at her mother.
"Janet uses the restraints every time," Patricia said. "She said it actually makes it easier because you don't have to think about holding still."
"I don't—" Megan started.
"Megan." Her mother's voice carried finality. "He's a professional. This is what he does."
Dr. Kovac waited. He didn't sell, didn't persuade. He simply sat with his large hands resting on his knees.
"...Okay," Megan whispered. "Fine."
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**IV. Positioning**
"Remove the gown."
Megan untied it and let it fall. She was fully naked under the surgical light — exposed in a way that made her want to fold inward, to disappear. Dr. Kovac didn't look away or give her a moment to adjust. He simply pointed to the table.
"Lie back."
She lay down on the cold padding. He adjusted the backrest to a shallow incline — enough that she could see down her own body, see everything that would be done to her. She would later wonder if that was intentional.
He extended the stirrups — heavy, industrial things with deep heel cups and wide knee supports. He guided her feet into them, then spread them apart. Wide. Wider than she expected. Her thighs trembled with the stretch.
He began with the ankle restraints — thick padded cuffs that buckled firmly, each one secured with a metal clasp that clicked with authority. Her legs were locked in the open position.
Then the waist strap — a wide padded belt that cinched across her hips, pulling her pelvis flat against the table. She couldn't arch her back, couldn't lift her hips, couldn't twist away.
Finally the wrists. He pulled her arms out to the side rails and secured each one. She tested the restraints instinctively — a small, panicked pull. Nothing moved.
She was spread open, pinned down, naked under a light that left nothing in shadow. Dr. Kovac positioned the surgical lamp directly between her legs. She could feel its heat on her inner thighs, on the exposed skin of her vulva.
He snapped on gloves. They were thick, slightly textured — not standard exam gloves. He pulled them tight, flexing his fingers.
"We'll begin."
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**V. External Genital Examination**
He started with his hands. Without preamble, his thumbs pressed against her outer labia, spreading them apart. The air hit surfaces that had never been exposed like this — her inner labia, the vestibule, the hooded clitoris, the small dimple of her urethral opening, and below it, her vaginal introitus with its visible hymenal membrane.
"Vulvar skin is healthy. No lesions. Labia minora, symmetric, well-developed. Clitoral hood — intact." He retracted the hood with his thumb, exposing the glans directly. Megan flinched at the contact — the sensitivity was electric. He held the retraction and examined the tissue closely.
"Clitoral glans, normal size, pink, no adhesions." He pressed down on it — firmly. Megan gasped. Then he rolled it between thumb and forefinger, assessing mobility. The sensation was overwhelming — too intense, in this context, to be anything but distressing.
"I need to assess nerve function and pain response in the vulvar tissue," he said. He opened a drawer in the rolling cart beside him and removed a neurological pinwheel — a small wheel covered in sharp, radiating pins. He rolled it slowly along the inner surface of her left labium, from top to bottom.
The sensation was a line of bright, prickling pain — dozens of tiny points pressing into the delicate mucosa. Megan whimpered and tried to close her legs. The restraints held. He repeated the path on the right side.
"Bilateral nerve response is symmetric and appropriate."
He set the pinwheel aside and picked up a thin probe — rigid, with a blunt tip. He pressed it against the vestibular tissue at the six o'clock position near the vaginal opening — the area most dense with nerve endings.
"I'm testing for vestibulodynia. This is a cotton-swab test, modified. I use a firmer instrument for more accurate provocation."
He pressed. Hard. Megan cried out — a sharp, involuntary sound. He moved to five o'clock and pressed again. Four o'clock. Three. He systematically provoked every clock position around her vaginal entrance, each press drawing a whimper or gasp.
"Mild tenderness at five and seven o'clock. Consistent with normal sensitivity. Not pathological, but noted." He documented each response on his tablet.
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**VI. Vaginal Examination — Manual**
"I'm going to perform a digital exam first."
He lubricated one finger — his index finger, which was thick, proportional to his large hands. He placed the tip at her introitus. She could feel the pressure — cool lubricant and warm, blunt fingertip.
"Your hymen is intact. I can see it. Annular type with a moderate opening. I'll be passing through it."
He pressed inward. The stretch was immediate — her opening resisting, then slowly yielding around his finger. When the finger reached the hymen, he didn't pause. He pushed through it with a steady, controlled force. Megan felt a sharp tearing pain — a hot, bright snap inside her — and she cried out, pulling against the wrist restraints.
"Hymen is disrupted. Bleeding is minimal." His voice was flat, observational. His finger continued deeper, sliding into her vaginal canal for the first time. She felt the invasion — thick, probing, reaching places she had never been touched.
He rotated his finger, pressing against the vaginal walls — anterior, posterior, lateral. "Vaginal caliber is narrow. Expected. Rugae are prominent." He curled his finger upward, pressing against her anterior wall. The pressure radiated into her pelvis — not precisely pain, but a deep, unsettling fullness.
"I'm going to add a second finger."
"Please — one is enough—"
"One is not enough. I cannot adequately assess tone, distensibility, or adnexal structures with a single finger."
Two fingers, pressed tightly together, pushed into her. The stretch at her entrance was sharp — the torn hymen stinging as the tissue was forced wider. Megan whimpered, her wrists rotating uselessly in the cuffs.
He advanced both fingers deep, then placed his other hand on her lower abdomen, pressing firmly down. His fingers inside her pushed up. Her uterus was compressed between his hands — she could feel it, a dense, cramping pressure deep in her pelvis.
"Uterus is anteverted, normal size. Mobile. Non-tender." He shifted his internal fingers to the left, reaching further, his external hand tracking to match. A deep, wrenching cramp gripped her left side.
"Left ovary. Approximately three centimeters. Non-cystic. Tender to palpation — normal." The pain was a nauseating ache, deep and internal.
He shifted to the right. The same reaching, the same cramp.
"Right ovary, similar. No masses. No enlargement."
He withdrew his fingers. Megan's body shook with residual tremors. She looked down — his glove had a streak of blood. Her blood.
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**VII. Vaginal Examination — Speculum**
Dr. Kovac turned to the first instrument tray and removed the drape. Arranged in order of size were several speculums. He bypassed the first three — the narrow Pederson, the standard Graves, the medium Graves — and picked up the largest. It was a Graves extra-large, stainless steel, its blades wide and long, designed for multiparous women, not for a petite virgin.
"Dr. Kovac," Megan said, her voice thin and shaking. "That's — isn't there a smaller one?"
"Smaller speculums provide inferior visualization. I need full-length vaginal wall exposure and complete cervical view. This instrument provides that."
"But I've never — I'm small—"
"I'm aware of your anatomy. The vaginal canal is designed to be elastic. It will accommodate this instrument. The discomfort will be significant but temporary."
He applied lubricant to the blades — a thin, almost perfunctory coating — and positioned himself between her restrained legs. The speculum approached her opening, and she could see it — wide, metallic, impersonal.
He placed the closed blades at her introitus and pressed. The initial entry forced her opening wider than his two fingers had — wider than anything had ever stretched her. The torn hymen screamed with fresh pain as the rigid metal pressed against the raw edges. Megan's scream was real — high, thin, choked.
"Breathe." He did not slow down. The speculum slid deeper — each centimeter a negotiation between steel and virginal tissue. Her vaginal walls, tight and narrow, were forced apart by the broad blades. She could feel the metal cold against her internal surfaces, feel herself being opened from the inside.
When the speculum was fully inserted — the blades deep, the hinge protruding from her entrance — he began to open it. The thumbscrew turned slowly, and the blades separated.
The sensation was a spreading, burning stretch that radiated outward from her center. Her vaginal walls were pulled taut, the tissue going white at the points of maximum pressure. She screamed again — not a gasp, not a whimper, but a scream that echoed off the examination room walls.
"Almost at full aperture." He turned the screw further. The blades opened wide — painfully, impossibly wide for her small frame. Megan's entire pelvis felt as though it were being split open. Tears rolled freely down her temples.
He locked the speculum in place. She was held open — her vaginal canal gaping around the steel blades, her cervix visible at the far end under the bright light.
"Excellent visualization. Vaginal walls are pink, healthy, no lesions. Cervix is visible and well-positioned."
He reached for a cytobrush — a small bristled instrument on a long handle. He extended it through the open speculum and pressed it against her cervix, then rotated it firmly, scraping cells from the surface and the endocervical canal. Megan felt the scraping — an abrasive, nauseating sensation on a part of her body she'd never known she could feel.
"Pap sample collected." He placed the brush in a vial.
"Now — I'm going to take multiple vaginal wall biopsies. Standard practice for my first-visit patients. The vaginal epithelium can harbor subclinical HPV and dysplastic changes invisible to the eye. The only way to rule this out definitively is tissue sampling."
He picked up a cervical biopsy forceps — a long, thin instrument with small, sharp jaws at the tip. He extended it through the open speculum.
"I'll take four samples. One from each vaginal wall quadrant."
The first bite was at the anterior wall — the tissue closest to her bladder. The forceps gripped a tiny fold of vaginal mucosa and snapped shut. Megan screamed — a sharp, focused pain, like being pinched from the inside with razor-edged pliers. She could feel the tissue tear as the sample was pulled free.
"Anterior sample collected."
He applied silver nitrate to the biopsy site — a cold touch followed by a chemical burn that made her writhe against the waist strap.
He moved to the posterior wall. Another bite. Another scream. The left lateral wall. The right.
Four biopsy sites, each one cauterized with silver nitrate. Megan was sobbing — deep, shaking sobs that moved her entire body. Small beads of blood dotted her vaginal walls inside the gaping speculum.
"Specimens are adequate. I'll send them to pathology."
He left the speculum in place.
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**VIII. Urethral Examination**
"The urethra is routinely neglected in standard gynecological practice," Dr. Kovac said, setting aside the biopsy forceps. "Most physicians ignore it entirely. This is a diagnostic failure. Urethral pathology — diverticula, caruncles, chronic infections, periurethral gland disease — can cause years of symptoms that are misattributed to other causes."
With the large Graves speculum still locked open inside Megan's vagina, her urethral meatus was clearly visible — a small, pink opening just above the anterior lip of her vaginal entrance.
He began by palpating the urethra externally — pressing a finger along its length from the bladder neck toward the meatus, milking it firmly. The sensation was intense and unpleasant — a hot pressure that triggered an overwhelming urge to urinate.
"Periurethral glands are non-tender. No discharge expressed. Good."
He closed the large vaginal speculum and slowly withdrew it. Megan groaned as the blades closed and slid out — the relief enormous but tempered by the ache of overstretched tissue.
Then he reached for a second instrument. This one was different from any speculum Megan had seen. It was shorter than the vaginal speculum but equally wide — a large, modified speculum with shallow, rounded blades designed to be inserted vaginally but angled to expose the anterior wall and the urethra above it. Along the inner surface of each blade, small retractable pins were arranged in parallel rows — each pin approximately two millimeters long, with a sharp point.
"This is an instrument of my own design," Dr. Kovac said. "The blades position and retract the anterior vaginal wall to expose the full length of the urethra. The pins deploy to anchor the blades in place, preventing slippage, and simultaneously to assess the sub-epithelial capillary response of the vaginal tissue — the bleeding pattern from micro-punctures provides diagnostic information about tissue health, hormonal status, and vascular integrity."
"Pins?" Megan whispered. "Inside me?"
"Yes."
He lubricated the speculum — again, minimally — and inserted it into her raw, already-abused vaginal canal. The re-entry was agony. She was swollen, torn, tender from the biopsies, and the broad blades stretched her open once more. She cried out, pulling against every restraint.
He opened the blades, pressing the anterior vaginal wall upward, which displaced the urethra into full visibility from outside.
"Deploying anchoring pins."
A soft mechanical click, and then — dozens of tiny needles pressed simultaneously into her vaginal tissue from the inside. Each one was a discrete point of sharp, piercing pain. Together they formed a field of fire along both vaginal walls. Megan screamed and her body spasmed against the waist strap, the wrist cuffs, the ankle cuffs. Nothing moved. She was held open, pinned in place from inside and outside.
"Excellent. Blades are anchored. Tissue is stable." He examined the pin-puncture sites clinically. "Capillary refill is symmetric. Bleeding pattern is consistent with healthy, well-estrogenized tissue. No atrophy. No vascular abnormalities."
With the anterior vaginal wall retracted and the urethra fully exposed, Dr. Kovac began the urethral examination.
First, he used a thin, rigid urethral sound — a steel rod approximately five millimeters in diameter with a curved, bulbed tip. He applied lidocaine gel to the tip — not for comfort, he noted, but to facilitate passage.
"I'm going to sound your urethra. This assesses caliber, length, and identifies strictures or obstructions."
He placed the tip against her urethral meatus and pressed inward. The urethra — a tube meant only for the passage of urine — resisted the intrusion. He applied steady pressure, and the sound breached the opening and began to slide in.
Megan's scream was different now — high, ragged, desperate. The sensation of a rigid steel instrument entering her urethra was unlike any pain she'd experienced. It was a burning, pressurized invasion of a passage so small and so sensitive that every millimeter of advancement felt catastrophic. She could feel the sound moving upward — a line of fire traveling toward her bladder.
"Sound is advancing without resistance. No strictures. Urethral length, approximately three-point-five centimeters." He held the sound in place, then slowly rotated it three hundred and sixty degrees. Megan's body shook violently against the restraints. "No palpable masses. No diverticulum detected."
He withdrew the sound slowly. The removal was almost worse than the insertion — the steel dragging along the raw, sensitized urethral lining.
"Now I'm going to perform a urethral distension test," he said. "I instill sterile saline into the urethra under pressure to assess wall compliance, detect micro-fistulas, and provoke any occult diverticula."
He attached a syringe filled with saline to a narrow catheter tip and placed it at the urethral opening. He injected slowly.
Megan felt her urethra fill — the walls ballooning outward under the fluid pressure. The sensation was indescribable — an agonizing fullness in a tube not designed to be full, a desperate need to urinate combined with a burning distension that radiated up to her bladder and down through her pelvis. She screamed and sobbed, her body rigid against the restraints.
"Good distension. No leakage. No fistula detected." He withdrew the catheter, and saline gushed out involuntarily, running down over her perineum — a hot, humiliating stream she had no control over.
He retracted the pins — another constellation of stinging pain — and removed the speculum from her vagina. Small drops of blood marked each pin site.
"Urethral assessment is complete."
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**IX. Breast Examination — Manual**
Dr. Kovac released the waist strap temporarily and adjusted the backrest so Megan was sitting partially upright. Her wrists and ankles remained secured. She was naked, tear-streaked, trembling, her vulva swollen and red and spotted with blood.
"Breast examination," he announced.
He stood in front of her. Without prelude, his hands covered both breasts simultaneously — his large palms dwarfing her small A cups, his fingers spreading to encompass the entire breast mound. He pressed the tissue flat against her chest wall and began palpating in firm, concentric circles.
"Breast tissue is dense — typical for your age and size. No dominant masses palpated." He moved to the axillary tail of each breast, pressing deep into the tissue near her armpits. Then he palpated the supraclavicular and infraclavicular nodes. "Lymph nodes are non-palpable. Good."
He took her right nipple between his thumb and forefinger and squeezed — hard, compressing the nipple and the tissue behind it. Megan winced. A tiny bead of clear fluid appeared.
"Physiologic discharge. Normal." He repeated on the left. Same response.
Then he gripped each nipple and pulled — extending the breast tissue outward, testing elasticity and attachment. Megan gasped at the sharp, tugging pain.
"No retraction. No fixation to underlying structures. Cooper's ligaments are intact."
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**X. Breast Examination — Needle Aspiration and Tissue Distension**
"The manual exam has limitations," Dr. Kovac said, turning to the second instrument tray. He removed the drape. On it lay a row of large-gauge needles — 14-gauge, with long barrels — attached to syringes. Four were empty. Two were filled with a turbid, yellowish solution.
"In small, dense breasts like yours, palpation alone cannot reliably detect lesions under one centimeter. I compensate for this with two techniques. First, fine-needle aspiration from multiple quadrants for cytological analysis. Second, intramammary injection of a hypertonic irritant solution that causes controlled tissue swelling and inflammation. The swollen, inflamed breast is far easier to palpate — masses that are impalpable at normal size become obvious when the surrounding tissue is distended and sensitized."
Megan stared at the needles. "You're going to stick those in my breasts and inflate them?"
"Yes. The aspiration involves four punctures per breast. The distension injection is a single deep injection per breast. The distension agent contains hypertonic saline, glycerin, and a mild inflammatory compound. It causes significant swelling, heat, and pain. The breasts will enlarge substantially and remain swollen for eight to twelve hours."
"I don't — I don't want—"
"Your mother selected me for my thoroughness, Megan. This is what thoroughness looks like."
From the corner: "Do what you need to do, Doctor."
He swabbed her right breast with povidone-iodine — the cold, rust-colored antiseptic painting her small breast like a target. He lifted the first 14-gauge needle.
"First aspiration. Upper outer quadrant."
The needle touched her skin — a cold point against the swell of her breast just above the nipple. He pushed it in. Megan felt the sharp initial sting of skin penetration, then a deeper, crunching resistance as the needle entered the dense breast parenchyma. He advanced it two centimeters and aspirated — drawing back the plunger. A tiny amount of straw-colored fluid entered the syringe.
He withdrew and moved to the upper inner quadrant. Another puncture, another deep grinding insertion. Megan whimpered — a broken, exhausted sound.
Lower inner. Lower outer. Four aspirations in the right breast, each leaving a small bead of blood on the iodine-stained skin.
He repeated the procedure on the left breast. Eight total aspirations. Megan's chest was dotted with puncture marks, her breasts aching from the repeated deep-tissue penetration.
"Aspirate is clear bilaterally. No atypical cells grossly. Samples will go to cytology."
He set the aspiration syringes aside and picked up the first filled syringe — the distension agent. The syringe was large, and the yellowish solution inside looked viscous.
"I'm injecting the distension compound now. Deep intramammary injection, central breast, sixty milliliters per side."
He positioned the needle at the center of her right breast, just lateral to the nipple. A deep puncture — three centimeters in, to the core of the breast tissue. Then he began to inject.
The solution entered her breast and Megan felt it immediately — a hot, expanding pressure from the inside. The hypertonic fluid was drawing water from the surrounding tissue even as it was being injected, amplifying the distension exponentially. Her small breast began to swell visibly — the skin stretching, the tissue filling, the veins becoming prominent and blue against the now-flushed skin.
The pain wasn't sharp — it was deep, throbbing, relentless, and it built with each milliliter. By thirty milliliters, her breast had visibly doubled in size. By sixty, it was round and taut — a swollen, reddened dome where a small, soft breast had been. The skin was shiny and hot to the touch. It throbbed with every heartbeat, each throb a pulse of pain.
Megan was screaming through clenched teeth — a grinding, sustained sound that broke into sobs.
He moved to the left breast. Same procedure. Same deep injection. Same agonizing inflation. By the time he withdrew the second needle, both of Megan's breasts were grotesquely swollen — round, red, stretched tight, each one a burning sphere of pain on her narrow chest.
He palpated the swollen breasts — firmly, methodically, pressing his fingers deep into the distended, inflamed tissue. Every touch was excruciating — the tissue was under pressure, sensitized, burning with the inflammatory reaction.
"No masses palpable in either breast under distension. Tissue response is symmetric. Excellent."
Megan couldn't speak. She could only sob.
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**XI. Rectal Examination**
"Final phase," Dr. Kovac said. He re-engaged the waist strap, tightening it. He adjusted the stirrups — raising them higher and angling them back so that Megan's hips were elevated, her pelvis tilted, and her anus was fully exposed below her swollen, blood-spotted vulva.
"The anorectal examination."
He re-gloved with fresh thick gloves and applied lubricant to his index finger.
"Digital exam first."
He placed his fingertip against her anus — the puckered ring of muscle that clenched reflexively at the contact. Without waiting for her to relax, he pressed inward. The sphincter resisted — tight, strong, never before penetrated — and then gave way as his large finger pushed through.
Megan groaned — a deep, guttural sound. The sensation was overwhelming — a burning stretch of her anal ring, followed by a deep, filling pressure as his finger advanced into her rectum. She felt the violation acutely — a passage that was never meant to admit anything from the outside now being probed by a thick, gloved finger.
"Sphincter tone is strong. Good resting pressure." He pressed his finger deeper — all the way in, to the knuckle. His finger rotated inside her, pressing against the rectal walls in a systematic sweep. "Rectal mucosa is smooth. No masses, no hemorrhoids, no fissures."
He pressed his finger anteriorly — toward her vagina — and she felt the thin wall between the two passages compress. "Rectovaginal septum, intact, no nodularity. No evidence of endometriosis."
He withdrew his finger and immediately returned with two fingers together. The stretch of her sphincter was sharper — a burning, tearing sensation that made her cry out.
"Assessing sphincter distensibility." He scissored his fingers inside her, stretching the anal canal in two directions. Then he pressed both fingers deep, palpating the upper rectum. "No rectal shelf. No polyps palpable."
He withdrew.
"Now — instrumentation."
On the tray were three rectal speculums, arranged in ascending size. Dr. Kovac bypassed the smallest — a thin, tubular anoscope — and picked up the medium-large instrument: a Pratt rectal speculum with wide, flat blades.
He lubricated it minimally and placed the closed tip against her anus.
"Push out against the instrument."
Megan obeyed — she had no fight left. The speculum entered her, the blades spreading her sphincter wide as they passed through. The stretch was enormous — the Pratt was designed for surgical access, not for routine screening in a petite teenager. She felt the metal fill her rectum — cold, rigid, unyielding.
He opened the blades. Her rectum spread apart, the tissue pulling taut around the expanding steel. She moaned — a low, broken sound — as the speculum reached full aperture.
"Rectal mucosa visualized circumferentially. Healthy. Pink. No polyps, no vascular abnormalities, no fissures. Hemorrhoidal plexus is normal."
He held the speculum open and used a long swab to sample the rectal mucosa — the cotton tip scraping against the sensitive internal lining. Megan shivered.
He closed the Pratt and removed it. Then he picked up the largest instrument on the tray — an extra-large Pratt with blades wider than the first, designed for maximum exposure.
"For the injection phase, I need maximum visualization."
He inserted the larger Pratt. The entry was brutal — her sphincter, already sore and loosened from the first instrument, was forced open even wider. The blades sank deep into her rectum. She screamed — hoarse now, her voice breaking.
He opened the extra-large Pratt to full aperture. She was spread wide — the inside of her rectum fully exposed, the muscular ring of her internal sphincter visible within the open blades.
"I'm going to perform a circumferential injection into the internal anal sphincter," he said. He prepared a syringe with a long needle — a mixture of corticosteroid, local anesthetic, and a sclerosing agent. "This serves multiple purposes. The corticosteroid reduces any subclinical inflammation. The anesthetic prevents post-exam sphincter spasm. The sclerosing agent causes a controlled tightening of the hemorrhoidal vascular plexus, which prevents future hemorrhoid development — a prophylactic measure most doctors don't bother with."
He positioned the needle at the twelve o'clock position of her internal sphincter, visible within the open speculum. He punctured the muscle.
Megan's body arched against every restraint simultaneously. The pain was a deep, searing burn — a needle penetrating the most sensitive ring of muscle in her body from the inside. He injected slowly, and she felt the solution spreading through the sphincter — a hot, pressurized expansion within the muscle itself.
He withdrew and repositioned at three o'clock. Another puncture, another injection. Each one sent a shockwave of burning pain through her pelvis. Six o'clock — the most sensitive position — drew the loudest scream. Nine o'clock completed the circle.
Then he added four more injections between the cardinal points — eight total, a full circumferential treatment. Each injection site throbbed with heat.
"Sphincter injection complete. Prophylactic sclerotherapy complete."
He withdrew the extra-large Pratt. The removal was slow — the wide blades dragging against the injection-swollen, raw sphincter tissue. Megan's entire body shook as the instrument finally cleared her anus.
He set the speculum in the basin. Her anus gaped slightly — the muscle too stunned, too injected to close immediately.
"I want to assess external anal tissue response," he said. He picked up a final syringe — a small one, with a fine needle. "One injection into the perianal skin at each quadrant — a collagen-stimulating compound that maintains sphincter integrity and prevents age-related laxity."
Four injections into the sensitive, nerve-dense skin surrounding her anus — each one a sharp, stinging puncture followed by a burning deposit of fluid beneath the surface. Megan barely reacted. She had gone somewhere distant — her eyes glassy, her breathing shallow and rhythmic, her body present but her mind withdrawn.
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**XII. Conclusion**
Dr. Kovac removed his gloves and washed his hands at the sink. The water ran for a long time.
He released the ankle restraints first. Then the waist strap. Then the wrists. Megan's limbs fell limp — she didn't move them. She lay on the table, naked, shaking, her breasts swollen and red, her vulva blood-spotted and puffy, her anus sore and leaking small amounts of the injected solution.
"Exam is complete," he said. "Everything appears healthy. I'll call with pathology results — the vaginal biopsies and breast cytology — within two weeks. I expect them to be normal, but the purpose of comprehensive screening is to verify, not to assume."
He made notes on his tablet.
"I want to see her again in four months. We'll repeat the vaginal and rectal components, and by then the breast tissue will have normalized, allowing me to compare future distension results."
"Wonderful," Patricia said, rising from her chair. She put her phone in her purse. "See, Megan? You survived."
Megan didn't respond. She was staring at the ceiling.
"The breast swelling will peak in about two hours and resolve over eight to twelve," Dr. Kovac continued. "She should expect significant soreness — vaginal, urethral, rectal, and mammary. Ibuprofen as needed. She may notice blood when urinating or having a bowel movement for a day or two. This is normal. If bleeding is heavy or persists beyond seventy-two hours, call the office."
"Should I be worried about infection?" Patricia asked.
"I've administered the sphincter injections which include prophylactic agents. I'd also like to call in an antibiotic prescription as a standard precaution."
"Of course."
He turned to Megan, who still hadn't moved. "You can get dressed when you're ready. Take your time."
He left the room. Patricia gathered her things.
"Come on, sweetheart. Let's get you dressed and we'll stop for ice cream on the way home."
Megan slowly sat up. The movement made everything hurt — her swollen breasts ached with the shift in gravity, her pelvic region throbbed, her rectum burned. She reached for her clothes with hands that shook so badly she couldn't grip the fabric on the first try.
She dressed in silence. On the table, the paper sheet was spotted with blood and antiseptic. The two instrument trays held the used tools — the extra-large Graves speculum, the custom pin-speculum, the urethral sounds, the Pratt speculums, the biopsy forceps, the needles — all arranged in the stainless steel basin, all marked with traces of her.
At the front desk, the receptionist handed Patricia a card.
"Dr. Kovac likes to see first-time patients back in four months for a comparative follow-up. Shall I schedule that now?"
"Please," Patricia said.
Megan stood by the door, arms wrapped around her chest — the pressure against her swollen breasts made her wince, but she couldn't let go. She was holding herself together, literally.
The receptionist handed over the appointment card with a practiced smile. "See you in June, Megan."
Megan took the card. She didn't look at it.
In the car, Patricia started the engine and glanced at her daughter. "You're being very quiet."
"I'm fine."
"Dr. Kovac is the best. You should be grateful we could get in with him."
Megan looked out the window. The afternoon sun was warm on her face. She could feel every part of her body that had been touched, entered, opened, punctured, filled, stretched, and injected. She could map the exam by pain — each site a point on a constellation that covered her from chest to pelvis.
"Four months," she whispered.
"Hmm?"
"Nothing."
They drove home in silence.