"Eric, your mother loves you, you know. I know you want privacy, so do I, but you might have been a little too crude with your analysis of a sweet cartoon. The whole sex and death topic hits a little too close to home."

"Sorry, I didn't think about that, I just wanted to call out my mom for eavesdropping."

Julia leans Eric back down on the couch by sitting herself and rubbing at his stomach. "I know, but the topic is out there now and I want to talk about."

"What do you mean?"

"I know you have made the decision not to have sex, because there is a small chance you might get me pregnant. You have no idea how much I respect you and your decision, but I need to know you are making it with your whole heart and mind."

Eric emphatically nods, "I am, I would never risk getting you pregnant and leaving you alone. Never would risk it, even if chances were one in a million."

"What about me taking the risk, have you ever considered that?"

"Of course I am thinking about that, I wouldn't ever allow you to take that risk. Having a baby of a dead man?"

"Eric, I don't know if I believe in God , but I know I believe in fate. My body is screaming to be with you now, I almost ravaged you in the car today. I am not going to allow that to happen again without taking precautions."

Eric ruffles his hair, "What are you trying to say? We can't be alone anymore?"

"Not until I can make an appointment with my gynecologist. I will honor your decision not to have sex, but it would mean the world to me if you went to my appointment with me."

"Julia, you don't understand, I can't even if you are on birth control, I can't have a baby with you and never see them or make sure their mother and them have a good life. It is too cruel."

Julia puts her left hand on Eric's face, "If nature and my body give me a gift from you after I try everything I can think of to stop it that baby is meant to be here. I will love that baby and be extra sweet and tender with them because I love you and that baby would be the best part of me and you. Do you hear me, Eric? I love you! It doesn't matter if we never have sex or you can't say you love me back."

"Me telling you I love you is almost disrespectful. Even before I found out I had cancer, you have always been this perfect beautiful girl that I can't possibly give what she deserves."

Julia sighs, "And there it is... the REAL actual reason you can't have sex with me. Your heart isn't whole. Your ability to love and forgive yourself is damaged. You reach out to me with sweetness and tenderness, but it is confined and blocked by the walls you put up."