Mike feels ashamed of himself as he watches Enid hang up his clothes in the closet and gently folds them and puts them away in a dresser. There is such a lovely warmth how Enid touches everything that belongs to him, he almost feels as if each possession of his is being blessed by an angel. He looks around the house and it appears more like a luxury hotel than a multiplex. Beautiful rugs, chandeliers, state of the art oven and refrigerator.

Mike suddenly becomes solemn and gently places both hands on Enid's shoulders and looks deep in her eyes. "I have made terrible mistakes in my life. I chose to marry a woman who didn't love me. That was just as cruel to her as it was to me. I was blessed that she couldn't become pregnant because I could have brought someone else into a loveless situation.

I am grateful that I had that experience and it hurt so bad, so grateful. I am also grateful I was so angry and hurt at all women for so long. I never knew women like you and my other nurses existed. I don't know why you are such a beautiful person and are helping me, but I can't say no to you or your help and I feel like I am doing something wrong again and this time is a million times more scary."

Enid takes Mike's hands and sits him down next to her on a long leather sofa couch, "You aren't the only one who sinned against love. My senior year of highschool I chose a boy to love, he was sad, hurting and I thought he was just beautiful. I planned for months to give him everything I thought he wanted and needed. I gave him my virginity and he walked away. I gave him the sweetest parts of me, I was attentive, listened, and didn't judge, but I wasn't enough. It was my greatest fear and still is, not being enough for a man. I decided after my first boy I was bisexual and would never have sex with a boy again until he offered me the world and more. That is when I decided to intentionally use a boy to get what I was certain I wanted.

Jake Thornsman was a closet homosexual all through highschool he suspected people in his class knew and worse yet his parents. When I found him he was at the end of his rope. He was sobbing outside the gym auditorium one day and tried to schwoo me away. I parked myself right beside him and stared at him making weird faces until he laughed. He told me he was done with it all and just needed to be normal for two months of his life before leaving for college. He confided in me he couldn't continue down his path any longer.

I told him he didn't need to worry about being normal and I would take all the pressure off, he was going to be my boyfriend and that was that. He laughed and explained to me he wasn't attracted to girls and I laughed back and told him I thought penises were ridiculous and weird and planned to switch to girls immediately after him."

Mike laughs warmly, finding the 18 year version of Enid delightfully charming and tilts his head eager to hear more about her. "Those last two months of high school were my happiest. I still exchange Christmas cards with Jake. We went everywhere together and told eachother everything. I don't know how he did it but he managed to cut a hole at the bottom of the popcorn tub at the movie theater and had me screaming when I grabbed his buttery penis. Thank God it was horror film and no one suspected anything.

The one gift I did give him was his relationship with his father. He suspected his father was very homophobic and I had my suspicions too. One night I snuck up the side of his house into his room when my parents were fighting. I was joking and laughing with him and decided to take my shirt and bra off and force him to grab my boobs as payback for his movie theater stunt. His dad walked in holding a baseball bat and as I turned around I covered myself and his dad's face softened and I think he tried to disguise a smile. He closed the door and had a long heartfelt talk with his son the morning after.

Jake told me his dad cried the next morning and told him he loved him. He said that he was worried he was gay and it broke his heart because he was terrified of what a hard life he would have because of that. He said he was relieved to see Jake was happy with a girl, but begged him not to get a girl pregnant until he was atleast 30. Jake never told his parents about his sexuality, but after that he never questioned that they in fact loved him.

I have been doing a lot of self-reflecting lately. I always thought I used Jake more than my one night stand. I never opened up to the first boy I had sex with because I was too busy giving him what he wanted, a pretty girl who loves and listens. I cheated him and myself. I gave Jake more of me than 1000 night stands ever could...Mike, you are a very good boss and friend. And yes, I am afraid too! But it's a good fear. We are a dangerous breed and I'm pretty sure we are doomed either way. "