I’m just finishing up my morning routine when I hear a knock on my apartment door. I quickly glance at the clock as I pull my hair back into a pony tail—10:30, right on schedule. I open the door for my boyfriend, Jordan, and he pulls me into a hug.

“Hey babe,” he says as he kisses my forehead.

“Good morning,” I answer with a smile. I’m looking forward to today. Classes haven’t started for the semester yet, and Jordan and I are going to make the most of our last few days off for a while. I notice Jordan hasn’t taken off his shoes yet, and he’s still fidgeting with the keys in his hand. He sits down on the couch and motions for me to join. I sit down next to Jordan and he drapes his arm around my shoulders.

“Hey Allie, I’m so looking forward to today, and I’ve got a few ideas about some fun things we can do together. First, though, we need to go get your school check-up done.” I feel my skin start to get prickly and I look up at Jordan, my eyes widened. He continues, “I know the last time you went to the doctor you had a really hard time, so I get that you’ve been a little scared to go back even though you got that notification saying the deadline for turning in physical forms is the end of this month.” He’s right, the last time I had a physical I had called him crying from the car as soon as I got out of there. I’ve always been a little anxious about doctors, but last time I had no idea what to expect and ended up super uncomfortable in pain as I got examined and then had blood drawn. I kept repeating to Jordan that day that I wasn’t going back to the doctor.

“Please babe,” I halfheartedly respond, wanting to deal with this problem another day.

“I know babe, but I’m here to help you. My friend, Tyler, from the basketball team is a couple years older than us and since he graduated he’s been working as a Physician’s Assistant at the family medicine clinic near the athletic fields. I made an appointment for you with him this morning. He understands what’s going on, and we can trust him. Everything’s going to be fine sweetheart.” I don’t try to argue because I know it won’t make a difference. Jordan squeezes my shoulders and we leave the house. My anxiety is already starting to intensify. I see what Jordan was trying to do by scheduling the appointment with someone I’ve met before, but now I have the additional worry of what I will be like to have an exam with a guy.

We pull up to the office a few minutes later and Jordan leads me in with an arm around my waist, gently rubbing to try and reassure me. He checks us in, and I slide into a chair in the waiting room. A couple minutes later, a nurse enters the waiting room. “Allie? I can take you back now.” I squeeze Jordan’s hand and look at him.

“Don’t worry, I’ll come back with you sweetie.” The nurse smiles and leads us back to an exam room.

“You two can just have a seat in here and we’ll get some vitals started”. We sit down in the two chairs next to the door, and the nurse gets out her blood pressure cuff. “I’m just going to slide this onto your arm and take your blood pressure, okay?” I feel the squeezing of the cuff on my arm as she asks “you’re here today for a physical for school?”

Jordan answers, “yep, just a checkup.” The nurse smiles again.

“Okay, great. I’ll just grab your temperature and confirm some of your history and then I’ll let Tyler know you’re ready in here.” She quickly places a thermometer in my ear and asks me about my current medication list. “Alright, you’re all set with vitals. You can stay sitting where you are and Tyler should be by in a few minutes. Try to relax, okay? Tyler’s a super nice guy and I promise he’ll take good care of you.” I didn’t realize my anxiety was that obvious.

The nurse leaves and I rest my head against Jordan’s shoulder. He rubs my back and I consider pleading for him to just take me home now. We don’t talk much while we wait, except for a few times when Jordan guides me through a couple deep breaths as he feels me start to shake. “Everything’s okay, my love, it’s just a checkup and I’ll be with you the whole time.”

I hear a quick knock on the door and Tyler enters the exam room. I remember him from some of Jordan’s basketball practices last year. He’s tall, black, and young-looking. I notice that he isn’t wearing a white coat like I’m used to. He immediately flashes a friendly smile at us and reaches for my hand to shake it. “Hey Allie, it’s good to see you again! Is Jordan still being good to you?” He laughs and pats Jordan on the back.

“Hi,” I manage. “it’s good to see you too, Tyler.” He sits down at the computer and quickly glances over my chart.

“So looks like we’re doing a check-up for school today. No problem at all… Allie, Jordan let me know you’re a little nervous, is that right?” I blush, thinking about Jordan and Tyler talking about me and my fear of doctors.

“Yeah, a little,” I respond.

“Okay, well it’s totally normal to be a little anxious about going to the doctor, but my goal today is to make sure you’re comfortable the whole time. Are there any questions I can answer for you right now to help you feel a little better?” I start to shake my head, as this already feels awkward.

Jordan looks at me and says “it’s okay baby, you can tell him what’s on your mind.”

“Well…,” I start, “will anything hurt?” Jordan rubs my hand with his thumb. He knows I worry a lot about this. Tyler nods in acknowledgement.

“That’s a great question, Allie. A lot of people worry about that. Nothing I do in the exam today should hurt you, and I want you to let me know right away if you’re feeling any pain.”

“Okay,” I say quietly.

“Alright then, I’m going to start by asking some questions about your history so I can best take care of you. Some of them might feel awkward, but just try to relax and be as honest as you can. If you don’t feel comfortable answering something, just let me know.” I nod, and the prickly feelings start to come back.

“Okay Allie, first of all, are you having any pain or discomfort anywhere on your body today?” I shake my head. “Alright, good to hear. Now, can you tell me when the first day of your last period was?”

I blush a little again. “Uh, I think it was around two weeks ago.”

“Okay, great. Are you having regular periods?” “Yes.”

“Any pain with your periods?”

“Just some cramping, but nothing serious.” Jordan chimes in. “Her breasts also get a little sore sometimes.” I shoot him a look.

“Okay, I’ll make a note of that,” Tyler says.

“Okay Allie, are you currently sexually active?” I blush even harder and shift in my chair.

“Um, yeah.”

“Sorry, I know some of these can be a little embarrassing to answer, but they’re important for me to know.” I nod again. “How old were you the first time you had sex?”

“18.”

“Do you have oral sex?”

“Yes.” I look away.

“Okay, and what about anal sex? Have you ever done that before?”

“Yeah, a couple times.”

“Okay Allie, you’re doing great. Any pain when you have sex?”

“Um, sometimes,” I admit.

“Okay, thanks for being honest. That’s something we can look into. Can you tell me about how often you masturbate?” I really wasn’t expecting that one.

“Umm. I guess maybe a few times a week.”

“Okay, totally normal and healthy. Are you able to have an orgasm?” I fully look away and squeeze my hands together. Jordan gives me a reassuring half-smile and speaks up for me.

“She can normally have an orgasm when she masturbates either with her fingers or with a toy. When we have sex she can usually have one if she gets oral.” I about die right there in my seat.

“Ok, got it. Sounds like sexual responses are doing alright then,” Tyler remarks, as professionally as possible. “Okay Allie, we’re all done with the uncomfortable questions now. Thanks for hanging in there. I’d like to move on to the exam now, if that’s okay with you.”

“Okay,” I answer. Not really sure there’s much of a choice, but I appreciate him at least trying to get some consent.

“Perfect. So I’m going to step out of the room and let you get ready. He opens up a drawer and pulls out a paper gown. What I’d like you to do is undress down to your underwear for me. Everything else including your bra can come off and then you’ll put on this gown with the opening to the front. When you’re ready you can have a seat up on the table here and I’ll knock before I come back in.”

“Ok,” I manage, my eyes starting to burn. Tyler leaves to give me privacy and I start to cry, my whole face now burning with embarrassment. Jordan wraps me up in a big hug.

“Sweetheart it’s okay, he’s just going to check your body to make sure everything is healthy. Remember he said nothing is going to hurt you?”

“I know, I just want to leave my clothes on. I don’t want to do this.”

“I understand baby, I’m going to be here the whole time and if you get too uncomfortable you can let either of us know and I promise you he will stop. You’re in control. Here, let me help you change—you start getting undressed and I’ll hold up the gown for you. Remember you can leave your underwear on babe.” I suck a big breath in and exhale slow, coming back into my body a little. Now I’m nervous that Tyler will walk back in as I’m in the middle of changing, so I quickly pull off my t-shirt and slide off my shorts while Jordan holds the gown in front of me for some illusion of privacy. Jordan and I lock eyes, and then I reach back and unclip my bra, trying to hold my arms in front of my chest as I slip the straps off my arms. Jordan gives me a quick kiss on the cheek and helps me put on the paper gown. Then he lifts me onto the exam table and I’m super aware of the paper crinkling under me.

Jordan is standing at my side trying to make small talk when Tyler softly knocks on the door and walks back into the room. He glances at me and I know right away he can tell I’ve been crying. “Are you doing okay? Anything I can do to make you more comfortable?” he asks.

“No I don’t think so, I’ll be okay,” I reply, trying to convince all of us. Tyler flashes another friendly smile and Jordan squeezes my hand.

“Okay, well let’s go ahead and get started with your exam. I’ll walk you through everything.” I nod, and Tyler approaches the exam table. “Just going to get started here with your head and neck.” He looks in my eyes, ears, and mouth, then feels around on my neck. “Alright, let’s take a listen to your heart and lungs. Sorry, the stethoscope may be a little cold.” He gently slips the end of the stethoscope inside the opening to my gown, careful to keep me covered as he moves it around on my chest. Then he places it on my back over my gown. “Give me a couple good deep breaths now so I can listen…nice job.” The deep breaths helped to ground me for just a minute before I hear Tyler’s next request. “Okay Allie, everything’s looking great so far. Now the next thing I need to do is a quick breast exam.” I feel my face get warm, and I don’t even respond. “I totally understand it can feel a little weird to be examined with your clothes off, but I just want to make sure everything is okay. This won’t hurt at all and it will only take a couple minutes. Now, when you’re ready, all you need to do is lay back on the table and put your arms behind your head for me.” I pause for a minute, then Jordan gently guides my shoulders and back down onto the table, lifting my arms up to get me settled. I can’t help but start to shake. “It’s alright Allie, let’s try taking a couple deep breaths. Once you tell me it’s okay, I’m just going to open up the top of your gown one side at a time so I can take a look.” I squeeze my eyes shut for a second and nod my head.

“Go ahead.”

“Alright, so I’m just going to open the left side of your gown here, and then you’ll feel my touch.” I flinch a little as Tyler’s fingers make contact with my skin. “I’m just feeling around of any lumps or anything unusual; let me know if anything I’m doing feels tender or painful.” His hands don’t actually feel that bad on my chest, but as he moves closer to my nipple I blush a little as I notice them start to harden. Tyler moves his fingers in to take a closer look and I look up at the ceiling. “That’s a totally normal response to touch, Allie, don’t even worry about it,” he remarks with an empathetic smile. I try to stay still as Tyler covers the left side of my chest and opens the gown on the right, repeating the same process. “Ok, Allie, your breasts look and feel really healthy. As always, don’t hesitate to come in and get checked out if you or Jordan ever notice anything that seems different.”

“Ok, thanks,” I answer, not really sure what the appropriate response to that is.

“Ok, so while you’re still laying down I’ll go ahead and examine your belly if that’s ok.”

“Yeah, alright.” Tyler is careful to keep the gown covering me as he slips his hands underneath to push around all over my stomach. This part is alright, though I do start to squirm a little as I feel his hands pressing close to my hip bones and around the waistband of my underwear.

“Sorry, is something feeling a little tender around here?” Tyler asks as I shift around on the table.

“Uh, no, everything’s fine, just got a little surprised for a second.” Tyler half-grins.

“Yeah, sorry, I know that’s a sensitive area, but it’s definitely important to know if anything is feeling out of the ordinary around your belly or your ovaries. But anyway, your abdominal exam is normal. You can go ahead and sit up now.” I sit up and Jordan comes to stand at my side. “Alright Allie, you’ve been doing great so far, and we’re almost done here. Now, I wanted to ask, have you ever had a pelvic exam before?” My whole body goes tense, and I look down at the floor, not at all liking the direction this is going in. Jordan rests a hand on my back and jumps in to answer.

“She had her first one last year, and it didn’t go well. That’s actually been a big part of the reason Allie’s been scared to come back to the doctor.” Tyler nods and gives me an understanding look.

“Ok, thanks for letting me know that. Allie, do you feel comfortable telling me a little bit about what didn’t go well or what scared you about that last exam?” I hesitate for a minute, but I feel slightly comforted that Tyler has taken the time to even ask about it.

“Well, um, I didn’t really know what was going to happen and then it really hurt and I started crying and the doctor just told me to relax and kept going even though I asked her to stop.” All of us take a minute to process that. Tears start welling up in my eyes, and I feel Jordan start to gently rub my back.

“Thanks for being brave enough to share that with me,” Tyler starts. “I’m really sorry you had to go through that, and I can definitely understand why you may be scared to have another exam. We can certainly wait for another visit to do the exam if you really aren’t comfortable, but I promise I’ll take care of you and there won’t be any surprises.” I look up at Jordan and he squeezes my hand.

“It’s up to you baby, but we just want to make sure every part of you is healthy.”

“Ok,” I say quietly. Jordan kisses my forehead. “I’ll be here with you the whole time sweet girl, I don’t want you to be scared.” I rest my head on his shoulder. Tyler puts on his best smile and starts to give instructions.

“Ok Allie, now I want to remind you that we can stop or pause the exam at any point if you start to get too uncomfortable, and I’ll talk you through everything that will happen.” I nod. “Alright, so the first thing I’ll have you do is slip your underwear off, and then I’ll help guide your feet into these footrests.” My face turns red and hot from embarrassment, but I don’t want to draw too much attention to it, so I quickly pull down my underwear underneath my gown and hand then to Jordan, who tosses them on top of my other clothing. I feel Tyler gently touch my ankle, and I allow him to nudge my feet until they settle into the footrests he’s pulled out from the exam table. “Good job Allie, now go ahead and slide your hips all the way to the end of the table and lay down.” I slide all the way down, remembering the routine, and I try my best to keep my knees together as I lay back. Jordan takes his place near my head, holding my hand in his and smoothing my hair with his other hand. It’s hard to see Tyler now, but I hear him setting up some supplies and then take a seat on his stool between my legs. “Ok Allie, I know this part feels a little weird, but I want you to try and relax your knees apart as far as you can for me.” He gently touches each knee, encouraging me to spread wide. I do so reluctantly, and now I’m super aware that Tyler can see everything down there. “Thanks Allie, that’s great. Try and keep your legs in a position where your hips and thighs can relax, that will make you a lot more comfortable.” I’m not sure that’s possible, but I nod anyway. “Alright, so the first thing I’m going to do is take a look at the outside of your vulva. I’m checking for any redness, bumps, or problems with the skin here. I’m going to gently touch your inner thigh now.” I feel his gloved hand on my leg as he pauses for a few seconds. “Ok, you’re going to feel my touch on your vulva now, is that ok?”

“Yeah, ok,” I respond. I feel Tyler gently separate my labia, starting from the top and moving down toward my opening. I try not to squirm as he exposes me more and more.

“Everything is looking healthy here on the outside. Is anything hurting when I touch?” I shake my head. It feels weird to be talking about my body while he’s physically touching my private parts. “That’s good, you’re doing great. Now this next part is what might have made you feel a little scared the last time you went to the doctor. I’m going to use a tool called a speculum to take a closer look inside your vagina and also check your cervix.” I feel a wave of fear come over me, and I instinctively try to close my knees and sit up. “Hey, hey, I said no surprises, remember?” Tyler says reassuringly. He lets me sit up and walks over to my side with the speculum in his hand. “I want to show you what it looks like so hopefully it won’t feel so scary.” He demonstrates what will happen and points out that he has selected a small size for me. I appreciate his effort, but I’m still having trouble calming down.

“A lot of patients find the speculum exam to be a little uncomfortable or strange feeling. You’ll probably feel some pressure inside your vagina when I insert it, but I want you to let me know right away if you feel any pain,” Tyler explains. I can’t hold it back any longer and I start to cry quietly, still sitting up.

“Oh, sweetheart,” Jordan consoles, “everything is okay. I promise you’re safe.” He pulls me into a hug and gently wipes my eyes. Tyler chimes in.

“Hey, Allie, we’re here to take good care of you. Can you lay back on the table and spread your knees apart for me? I promise you have nothing to worry about.” I hesitate, but both my boyfriend and Tyler have proven trustworthy so far, so I slowly start to lean back and relax my hips. “Yes, there you go. Just like that. Now, Jordan, I want you to come and stand next to Allie’s hips for this part.” I glance at Jordan nervously, and he repeats his reassurances as he moves a couple steps down toward my legs.

“Thanks,” Tyler acknowledges. “Allie, Jordan and I are going to work to keep you extra comfortable for this part of the exam since it’s been a little scary for you in the past. Your only jobs right now are to keep your legs spread wide and relax into your body.” I’m not exactly sure how he intends for this to go, but I nod and continue doing my best to lay still on the table. “Great, so I’m just starting to put a little bit of lubricant on the speculum now to get it ready. Jordan, for your part, I’d like you to turn toward Allie’s hips and use one of your hands to start gently massaging her clitoris.” Jordan looks a little caught off guard, looking at Tyler, then locking eyes with me before looking back at Tyler. I feel my face starting to get hot, not knowing what to make of the current situation. Tyler speaks up. “Don’t worry Allie. Jordan’s going to touch you just the way you like during the exam so you can focus on pleasure and I can observe your response as I examine you. Nothing to be embarrassed about. Are you okay with that?”

“Uh, yeah, I guess,” I manage to get out, my face still burning.

“Is it okay if I touch between your legs now, sweetheart?” Jordan asks. I lock eyes with him again and nod. I feel him gently part the top of my labia and rest a finger on my clit. I jump from the initial sensation, and both Jordan and Tyler smile. I feel a little strange, but I can’t deny that it already feels good.

I hear the faint rustling of some tools, and Tyler wheels his stool closer to my body. “Alright Allie, I’m going to get started with the exam now. If you need to stop at any time, let me know.” He waits for my nod of approval. “First you’ll feel my touch as I spread your vaginal opening, and then a little bit of cold pressure as I rest the speculum against your entrance.” I flinch a little as the tool touches my body, and Jordan begins to rub slow circles on my clit to offer a more pleasant sensation. “Good relaxing, Allie,” Tyler says. “Now I want you to take a big deep breath for me as I insert the speculum and open it up. You’ll feel some more pressure inside your vagina, but hopefully you’re feeling some pleasure as well.” I can definitely feel myself being filled up and spread by the speculum. It feels uncomfortable, but I’m surprised at how much Jordan’s casual stimulation is helping me. Once Tyler has the speculum open, he checks in. “Feeling okay?”

“Yeah, just feels a little weird inside.” I respond.

“Yeah, I know. You’re doing so good Allie, I’m just going to peek inside and then take a quick swab. Looks like your body is responding well to the stimulation.”

“Does that feel good, baby?” Jordan asks.

“Yes, just like that please,” I answer, breathing a little heavier. I feel a weird tickle deep inside me, and then I can feel Tyler sliding the speculum out. He sets it aside and observes Jordan’s movements on my clit for a minute before asking him to pause.

“Very good, Allie. Everything looked healthy during your internal exam, and I hope you felt a little more comfortable this time. Your vulva is definitely showing signs of arousal now. Is that how you like to be touched during intimacy?”

“Yes, that’s usually how Jordan or I do it.”

“Yeah, I had her masturbate in front of me so I could learn what kind of stimulation she needs to orgasm;” Jordan explains.

“That’s a great idea,” Tyler remarks. “I always encourage my patients to be open about what they need during sex.” Tyler stands up with his gloves still on. “Alright Allie, keep your knees open for me for one more minute. I’m going to insert two lubricated fingers into your vagina and press around on your belly for a minute. Jordan watches as Tyler slips his fingers inside me and feels around my hips, abdomen, and pubic area. I feel a little weird when Tyler asks me to squeeze around his fingers and then try to push his fingers out, but he reassures me he’s just checking out the muscles. After about a minute, he slides his fingers out and takes off his gloves.

“Alright Allie, your pelvic exam is all done now. You did great. I’ll help you move your feet out of the footrests and you can sit up.” I breathe a little sigh of relief and slowly sit up, my feet dangling off the table. Jordan smiles and gives me a kiss on the forehead. “We’re almost done with your check up here, just a couple more things left. You can go ahead and hop down off the table for this next part.” Jordan extends his hand and helps me to my feet.

“Okay, great. So next I need to check your bottom. Has a doctor ever checked there before?”

My face flushes immediately and I tighten my gown around myself. “No, never, but everything is fine there,” I reply, moving closer to Jordan. I’m hoping he will tell Tyler that we are all good and can skip this part.

Tyler flashes another empathetic smile. “I understand it can feel embarrassing, but it really is important that I examine your whole body, private parts included. I promise it won’t hurt.” I start to tear up again, but nod my head in acknowledgement. “Everything’s okay, Allie. All I need you to do it turn around and face the table and then bend all the way over to rest your head and chest on the table. Okay, now feet a little wider… perfect, just like that.” I start to shake a little. “Alright, now, Jordan, step right over here. I want you to spread Allie’s butt cheeks apart for me.” This could not get any more embarrassing. I feel Jordan give me a comforting rub on my cheeks before telling me to relax my butt for him so he can open me for the doctor. He spreads me wide open and holds, and the rush of air I feel against my most private area briefly reminds me of the times we sometimes play back there. I blush, but no one can see me with my head pressed against the table.

“Perfect,” Tyler remarks. “Allie, you’ll feel my touch on the outside, and I’m also using my pen light to help me get a closer look at you.” I’m thankful I can’t see this happening, and I try not to think about how embarrassing it is that Jordan has a front row seat to this exposure. “Now, Allie, during the history portion of the visit you indicated you’ve had a penis inside your butt before, correct?”

“Uhh, yeah, that’s correct,” I squeak out. Jordan laughs.

“Yeah, she can take a penis in her bottom like a good girl as long as she’s in the mood,” he clarifies.

“Oh, great to hear. Does Allie ever get penetrated with anything else back here?”

“Sometimes my fingers, a plug, a vibrator, or even a thermometer depending on how we’re playing,” Jordan answers. I wish he would have kept some of those things to himself.

“Sounds like you guys are able to have a lot of fun together. That’s wonderful. Okay, Allie, I’m going to rub some gel around your anal opening. It may feel a little cold.” I jump as I feel the cold lube touch my body. “It’s okay, I know it feels weird. Next, I need to check inside your bottom with my finger. Rest your body against the table, and then I need you to take a big deep breath for me and push out like you’re using the bathroom.” A quick wave of fear rolls through my body; I’ve never had this kind of checkup done before. I do my best to follow Tyler’s instructions, but it’s hard. I feel his finger put pressure on my hole, and my reflex is to tense up. “Don’t fight it, honey. It won’t hurt, but it’s going to be a lot less uncomfortable if you just relax your butthole for my finger. Deep breath, and let it out.” I give it my best shot, and I feel Tyler’s finger push up into my butt. I groan a little at the sensation, and Jordan rubs my cheeks gently with his thumbs. Tyler feels around a little inside and then slides his finger out. “Good job, Allie. Everything looks healthy back here. You can relax and stand back up.” Jordan lets go of my cheeks and helps me up. He looks at my face and pulls me into a hug, rocking me slightly.

“You’re doing so good sweetheart,” Jordan whispers as I rest my head against his chest. Tyler takes this time to write some notes and look over my chart.

“So, good news. Looks like we don’t need to do any vaccines or draw any blood today. Jordan mentioned that you sometimes get a little scared of needles, so I’m happy we don’t have to stress you out with that today.” I breathe a sigh of relief. I really do get anxious about needles, and I probably would have had a panic attack. “We do need to get a urine sample from you though. Quick and easy. I do need it to be a clean catch sample, so I can have Jordan help you. I assume you’d prefer that to me helping you?” I nod, and both of them laugh. I’m a little unsure why I would need help giving a urine sample, but I wait and watch as Tyler hands Jordan a sample cup and a little package with a wipe inside. He reaches for my hand and I follow him to the bathroom.

“Ok, sweetheart, let’s get this done. Can you sit on the toilet and hold your gown up around your waist?” Jordan instructs. I sit down and look up at him. “Alright, now spread your knees open as wide as you can for me.” I slowly separate my knees and watch as Jordan tears open the little square package. “I’m going to quickly clean between your legs with this little wipe now. It might be a little cold, but try to keep your legs open.” He takes the wipe and swipes it down my slit, starting at my clitoris and stopping right at the top of my vaginal entrance. I flinch a little at the initial touch of the wipe, but it isn’t so bad. “Good, baby. Now it’s time for the sample. I’ll hold your lips apart and then hold the cup under you with my other hand. All you need to do it relax and pee into the cup for me whenever you’re ready.” I blush, but allow him to spread me open and unscrew the lid to the sample cup. He makes it sound so casual, like he watches me pee all the time. He must sense my hesitation. “Aw, baby, you don’t need to be shy. I know it’s a little weird to pee in front of someone else, but it’s just you and me here. I’ve seen all your parts plenty of times, so this isn’t much different. Just take your time and relax your muscles. Let me know if you need me to rub your clit to help give you that feeling like you need to go.” I blush even harder at that suggestion. After a minute or so, I finally relax and start to pee into the cup as Jordan holds it under me. “Good girl, honey, there you go.” He lets me fill the cup about halfway, then I finish up in the toilet as he moves the cup and screws the lid back on. When I’m done, we walk back out into the exam room, and Jordan hands Tyler the sample.

“Thanks, Allie,” he says. “Your results should be back in a couple days. Now, everything checks out really well from your physical exam. I’ll finish filling out these forms for you and send them over to the school. Before you go, though, I wanted to take a minute for the three of us to have a conversation about what you shared earlier regarding pain during sex. Is that okay with you?” At this point, I’m barely even surprised. I nod my head. He motions for us to sit down in the chairs, and Jordan takes my hand.

“Can you tell me how often you’re having pain when you and Jordan have penetrative sex?”

“Um, it usually hurts at least a little, but it depends on the day and how much warm up we’ve had I guess.”

“Okay, that makes sense. Does the pain feel like it’s more toward the outside or your entrance, or do you feel it more when his penis goes in deep?”

“A little of both I guess.”

“Alright, thanks for answering that. Do you ever have to stop because of the pain?”

“Sometimes.” I lower my head. Jordan squeezes my hand and speaks up.

“Sometimes I can tell the pain is getting more intense because she will tense up a lot and start to tear up. Then we stop and usually I hold her for awhile until she stops crying. I’m always okay with stopping, but I don’t want her to be scared.” I start to tear up a little at the vulnerability of the whole situation, and Jordan reaches over and slowly rubs my back through my gown.

“Thanks for sharing those things with me, I know it’s vulnerable and it can be hard. I want to try and see if we can get some more information about your body and this pain so we can treat it for you. How does that sound?”

“Good,” I say.

Tyler nods. “So what I want to suggest is that you two attempt to have penetrative sex here in the exam room. I’ll give you some privacy for you to do whatever feels good, and then I’ll come back in do an assessment. Does that sound okay?” We both look at each other questioningly for a minute, but ultimately agree. “Okay, so I’ll step out of the room, and you two will have complete privacy. When you are done, don’t clean up Allie’s body or anything. Here is some lube you can use, and please make sure you stop if Allie is experiencing any pain or fear.” Then Tyler leaves us to ourselves.

We stand up, and Jordan wraps me in a big hug, kissing me passionately on the lips. “You did such a good job at your check up, princess. I know you were scared to come, but you’re being such a brave girl.” I smile and rest my head against his chest. He kisses me on the forehead and gently removes my paper gown. “There we go, there’s my girl’s beautiful body.” I squeeze my arms around him even tighter. “Alright baby, what’s going to be the most comfortable for you? Do you want to lean over the exam table, lay down, or is there something else you can think of?”

I think for a moment. “Can I try sitting on the table with you standing between my legs?” Jordan grins.

“That sounds sexy babe.” He picks me up and sets me down on the edge of the table. I feel his hands nudging my knees apart. “That’s it, I want to see all of you.” He just looks between my legs for a minute, then I watch as he squirts a little lube on his fingers and gently separates me. “Is it ok if I touch you now sweetheart? I just want to give you a little massage so you feel nice and relaxed for me.” I nod my head, and feel him start to rub the inside of my lips and up and down, stopping on my clit. I jump a little, and he laughs quietly while he applies more pressure and rubs circles on my sensitive area. After a few minutes of that, he dips his finger down to my entrance, commenting on how wet I am. “Are you ready for me, princess?”

“Yes,” I whisper nervously. He takes both my hands and squeezes them tight.

“You know you’re in control sweetie, I only want you to feel pleasure.” I nod in acknowledgement and watch as he slides down his pants, revealing his hard penis for the first time today. “Ok, spread your legs open as wide as you can, love. That’s a good girl.” He moves closer to me and touches his penis against my bare slit. “Now I want you to wrap your arms around me however feels good. I’m going to move to your opening and rub a little. Alright, now take a deep breath sweet girl. I’m going to start to push slow, little pressure now.”

He presses himself inside me, and I can’t help but grunt a little at the sensation. Once he’s inside far enough to not need his hand to guide him, he wraps me against him into a hug. “You’re being such a good girl, baby. Press your legs further apart and let me take care of you now.” As I open my legs, I feel him push deeper and deeper into me. I moan into his mouth as he kisses me. It feels a little uncomfortable, but this position and being wrapped up by Jordan is turning me on. Once he slides in all the way, he pauses for a minute to let me get used to the sensation. “You doing ok?”

“Yes, baby. I’m really turned on right now,” I answer, breathlessly.

“I’m so glad sweetheart. I’m going to move in you now, and I want you to work on grinding your clit against my pelvis while I thrust.” I feel a shock of pleasure between my open legs as he says that, and I start to rock my hips against him. After a few minutes, I feel my body start to stiffen up as pleasure keeps building in my belly. Jordan feels me squeeze around him inside and push my thighs against his hips.

“There you go, princess, let all those good feelings out. I’ve got you.” Hearing that sends me over the edge, and I cry out quietly as I have an orgasm with Jordan inside me. He holds me tight as my muscles tense and relax. He starts to thrust into me harder until a few strokes later I feel him push his pelvis into me hard and deep. “Hold on baby, I’m filling you up. You feel too good.” He holds himself there for a minute as he finishes emptying his cum into me. Then he gently pulls out and holds me against his body, gently wiping tears from my face. “Are you ok, sweetheart?”

“Yeah, I’m alright, just intense.”

“I know baby, I love you so much.” He pulls his pants up and continues to hold me, gently rocking side to side. It feels so nice and peaceful that I almost don’t notice the knock at the door.

“Come in,” Jordan answers, tightening his grip on me. Tyler enters the room and smiles.

“How are you two doing?” he says.

“We’re all good.” Jordan says.

“Great to hear,” Tyler remarks, as he walks over to a drawer and pulls out a fresh paper sheet. “Alright, let’s finish up here then. Jordan, can you lay her back on the table. We’re just going to cover her body with this sheet here.” Jordan gently moves me back onto the table and places the sheet on me so I’m covered from my chest to mid-thigh. Tyler walks over to me and puts on some gloves. “Ok, Allie. I’m just going to fold the sheet up above your hips now so I can do a brief exam. Is that ok?” I nod. “Great. Now I want you to bring your feet together and knees out to the side like a frog.” I comply, blushing a little. Jordan moves up beside me and takes my hand. “I know it’s a little weird, Allie, but no need to be embarrassed. I just going to take a peek at the outside now, you’ll feel my fingers on your vulva. I’ll be gentle, I know it’s probably a little sensitive from intercourse.” He separates my labia once again and just looks for a minute. “Looks a little red, but that’s totally normal. Any pain or discomfort right now?”

“Uh, just a little sore I guess.”

“Ok. So now I’m going to take this long q-tip and swab the inside of your vagina. Should be quick and easy.” I wince a little as I feel Tyler insert the swab and twirl a little. “Is that hurting you, Allie?” he asks.

“It burns a little.”

“Ok, sorry, it’s all done now. Sounds like the skin around your vaginal opening might be a little more sensitive.” He reaches over and grabs a few gauze pads. “Just going to wipe off some excess semen here. No big deal at all.” I blush even harder as I feel him wipe between my legs. “Ok, Allie, you can sit up now.” Jordan helps me to a sitting position and wraps the sheet around me for modesty.

“Ok, Allie, thanks for hanging in there with me today. I know these exams can be pretty awkward. The good news is that everything from your physical looks healthy and normal. No concerns there. As far as the pain from sex goes, I will let you know if anything comes back from the swab test. When you were having pain around your vaginal opening when I was examining you just now, it made me think you could be dealing with some overactive muscles in that area. I’m going to give you the name of a physical therapist who specializes in pelvic floor muscles. I think you should go have an evaluation and see what they recommend. I promise the evaluation won’t be scary at all. Either of you have any questions for me?”

I shake my head and look at Jordan. “I don’t think so, Ty. Thank you so much for seeing her today and helping her get through this.”

“No problem at all, everything was great. Please come back and see me next time you need anything, Allie. And, Jordan, let’s make plans to play some ball soon.” They shake hands, and Jordan drapes his arm around me.

As we walk out of the office, Jordan tells me how proud he is of me for being brave. “You did amazing baby girl. I know that was hard. Are you ready to go out for a treat, or would you like to go home first and decompress? If there’s anything you need to talk about, I’m here with you.”

“Can we go out for ice cream. I’d love to debrief later, but I think I need to do something fun right now.”

“Of course sweetheart, anything you want.”